i like to write. a lot. it's my way of tidying up in my mind, throwing out whatever i can by putting it down, black on white. of course it's not just any random thoughts of mine, i do write actual stories that make sense. that's what takes up most space in my mind; the stories.
i (try to) publish some of my works on the writing community
wattpad. i think it's been a little over a year since i joined now, and i still haven't completed a story. i wrote four chapters of one story, then put it on the shelf. and then i tried again with another idea, but didn't get further than the prologue. i have since tried to restore the last one, rewrite it and publish it. but with no luck.
one of my flaws is that i can never finish anything or continue with the same thing for too long. i've failed to finish any of my stories. there was only one story i finished; i was 13 and had just started getting serious about writing, and wrote a 200 paged novel. obviously because i was so young and it was my first work, it wasn't any good at all. but that was a good way of starting, and my passion for writing continued from there. i think i tried to write the sequel, but only came halfway through it (thank god! it really wasn't any good!). i joined wattpad a couple years ago, but because i was too busy with school and such, i didn't continue any of the stories then and deleted my account. then wanting to go back and finally try to publish and finish something, i went back for round two and i've already told you how that's turned out.
i've recently tried to clear my schedule and get on with the writing again, and have made a great start, but now my mortal enemy has come to visit me: writers block. i hate it. i really do. i hate wanting to be able to put the scenes playing in my head into words, and not being able to do so because i can't come up with the right words. it's like a singer who comes up on stage and is ready to sing, but the microphone doesn't work and no one hears her. but there's actually nothing wrong with the microphone, it's just been sabotaged! writers block is the person who's sabotaged my microphone. now you know why it's my mortal enemy.
but recently i've come to learn the key to defeating writers block, the key to anticipating when the microphone will be sabotaged and fixing it before i have to perform. it's simple really, all i have to do is change the way i think.
i think writers block draws its energy from our worry of what others will think of what we write. there's always something to write; if you have the idea in your head it shouldn't be difficult to write it all down. but it's when you start thinking what others would think of it that you stop up and try to write something better. but i guess people are self critical, so they're never satisfied with what they write and therefore cannot think of anything to write and that's when you think you have writers block! so the conclusion is that there is no mortal enemy called writers block. it's all in our heads, it's all because of us.
so what am i gonna do now? i'm gonna ignore "writers block", forget about what others might think of what i write, and tell my story the way i want to.
i'll let you know how that goes.
love lily x
